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Seth Emanuel’s Beautiful Birth (interventions and cesarean may require BOP, but it was a positive birth story, thanks to mom’s attitude!)

From around 38 weeks, I began experiencing significant birthing waves off and on.  A few times, I felt like my birthing time was approaching, got in a bath and listened to my birthing guide tracks and the baby come out track.  I felt so close to Seth then, I knew he would be with me soon and every wave was complete pleasure.  I felt ready for my birthing time.

The waves would subside after some time though, and active labour did not come.  After my “guess date”, I began to do some major work on releasing any remaining fears about birth and parenting, and saw that each day I would let go of more controlling and fearful thoughts and become even more ready for my role as parent.  By the time Seth’s birthing day came, I had completely let go of how I wanted things to go and accepted that I had done everything I could to provide Seth with a beautiful, natural birth.  Everything else was beyond my control.

This work of letting go and allowing for nature and the universe to take over was the most essential benefit of my hypnobirthing / hypnobabies work.  I had spent months practicing diligently for my perfect birth, envisioning and willing things to go a certain way, and this was all important, but ultimately the greatest lesson was knowing that no matter what happened, I could stay calm, relaxed, present and welcoming to whatever was in store.  “I calmly accept whatever turn my birthing may take” and “My only job is to relax and allow my baby to come to me” were wonderful affirmations I turned to often.

At 40 w 6 days, my midwives booked an ultrasound for me to make sure things were going smoothly, and if so we would wait until around 42 weeks for birth to begin naturally.  After the ultrasound, a most sensitive and wonderful OB came into the room and informed us that my fluid was quite low and that as much as she respected that I would want a natural birth and would prefer to let things start on their own, she strongly recommended that we “get on with things” as soon as possible to ensure the safety of the baby.  I cried as this was always my fear, having to make such a decision.  How do I really know whether my baby’s health is at stake?  Well, DH and I decided that we would in fact induce in a very gentle way in the next day or two if this is what my midwives recommended as well.  I have wonderful midwives who respect the natural birthing process and would not recommend induction before 42 weeks unless absolutely necessary.  Any concerns I had about whether this was necessary were put to rest when I spoke to my back-up midwife (my main was off call until 10 pm) who is incredibly anti-intervention, and she suggested we induce as soon as possible!  She didn’t even want to wait a day.  She said to go home, have something to eat and get our stuff and meet her at the hospital in 2 hours.  At this point I was able to put aside any regrets about things not starting spontaneously and just got excited that it was now my birthing time!  I would be meeting Seth very soon!

At the hospital, things did not look great.  I had been getting birthing surges all day, and was put on a fetal monitor to check things out and determine the best way to start induction.  It was found that my baby’s heartbeat was dropping with each surge, and this was concerning, as it was not certain that the baby would be able to withstand labour. At this point even more letting go was necessary, as my midwife warned that a C-section could be possible if things did not improve.  Again I was disappointed, but all my work in accepting whatever turn my birthing would take and staying calm and relaxed no matter what came in tremendously handy.  The decision was made to begin with cervadil, and to see how things progressed.  The contractions got more intense quite quickly, and as I stayed calm and relaxed and listened to my hypnobirthing / hypnobabies tapes I got into a great groove of riding them out.  Lo and behold, my baby’s heartbeat started to stay steadier throughout the contractions!  Seth and I were well on our way to his beautiful birth.

As I was only 1-2 cm dilated, midwife and OB thought things would take around 12 hours to really kick start.  I would stay at the hospital but both my midwife and husband went home to get some rest before things would really get going.  Good thing my mom decided to come stay with me even though I told her not to!   After about 3 hours, my birthing surges were so powerful it took all my strength to stay with the “anesthesia” and ride them out.  It really felt like pressure, but so much!  It was very intense and the waves were not really subsiding for more than a few seconds.  I went on all fours, rocked on a birthing ball, moved my hips and did whatever my body called on me to do to ride them out.  Soon enough though I began to feel that something was off, I was just not getting enough rest time between the surges.   OB came in and saw that it was getting too much, so we took out the cervadil and broke my water, I was 3-4 cm dilated already!  I called my midwife and husband and told them to come right away, it seemed like things were really progressing fast.

From then on I laboured naturally and beautifully for about 7 hours throughout the night, walking around, using the birthing ball, leaning against a wall or my husband and rocking my hips.  My DH and midwife were such incredible support, we listened to hypnobirthing / hypnobabies tracks out loud and they were with me through each birthing surge.  My husband rubbed my back, touched me and encouraged me so perfectly and I felt so connected with him and this beautiful moment. With each surge I felt my baby’s head come down, I envisioned a lotus flower opening and my baby coming through.  The waves were incredibly intense but it was beautiful.  And I was getting some rest in between so it was much more manageable than with the cervadil.

At this point my midwife started to get concerned with baby’s heartbeat again.  It looked like it was dropping with each birthing surge again, and would not stabilize.  I had to then stay on the fetal monitor the whole time, and lying on my back made it really difficult to ride out my birthing waves.  I got examined at this point, and was still only 5 cm so it looked like I would have a ways to go.  I began to consider an epidural, since the thought of labouring on my back for much longer was becoming unbearable.  It was amazing to be able to consider this possibility without fear or feeling like I would be failing in some way, I simply accepted that whatever felt right intuitively would be the right decision.  After discussing with my midwife, we saw that it seemed like it would be the right choice at the time.  I was getting exhausted and finding it harder to stay relaxed, and this was making things more difficult for both my baby and me.  We thought that an epidural would help me relax and perhaps allow for the baby’s heartbeat to stabilize.  I decided to go for it.

The anesthesiologist was wonderful and although the process was a bit scary it felt like it was definitely the right choice.  Almost immediately I got some relief, and we kept the epi at quite low so I could still feel what was going on.  It was great to be able to relax again and stay on my back.  We continued like this for an hour or so, but baby’s heartbeat failed to stabilize.  OB came in for a consult and recommended we just wait and see, I was about 6 cm by now so hopefully we could continue with a vaginal delivery.  As some of the drops in heartbeat got lower though, the decision was made to give me a different monitor for the baby that was more accurate, that would attach to the baby’s head.  This is when things got really critical, because once we tried to attach it we lost the baby’s heartbeat for a few seconds.  This was so scary, I thought we were losing the baby.  There was quite a bit of panic and both midwife and OB suggested we go for a C-section, it really appeared that the baby would just not be able to take labour anymore.  I decided to go for it.

At this point I felt so much acceptance, confidence and respect for both the natural order of things and grateful for medical intervention at times when it is necessary for the health of mom and baby.  I was scared and shaky as I was rolled to the operation room, but felt supported by the universe and by so many kind, great people who were committed to the best outcome for both Seth and I.  My husband came in with me and sat next to me throughout the quick operation, and soon enough we heard Seth’s first cry.  I have never felt or heard anything more beautiful in my whole entire life.  When I saw him I couldn’t believe the little miracle that had come from my body.  And he was so healthy and perfect, I couldn’t have been more grateful.  Dad held Seth as they finished up the operation and cut his cord, and within minutes Seth was on me and we were bonding beautifully.  I was able to breastfeed quite quickly after, and felt such an instant connection to this amazing new person that has entered the world.

Although I did not have a natural birth, the spiritual journey of being able to accept and allow what I once most feared (a surgical birth) was more enriching and rewarding than any birth I could have ever imagined.  Hypnobirthing and hypnobabies gave me the courage to know that I always have a choice, and I can always choose to stay calm, focused and positive no matter what the situation.  In the operation room, I told my husband that I felt so lucky have been able to experience so many things in one birth!  Induction, natural labour, epidural, surgical birth… and to stay connected to my baby and the process throughout.  I told him it had been the perfect birth, and so it was.  I’ve learned that what happens in life is exactly what needs to happen at any given time, and we are so much richer for allowing these experiences in and letting their beauty and wisdom enlighten us.  I can’t wait to see what other adventures and wonderful lessons Seth brings into my life.

Lots of love,

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You may have read Trillian’s birth story a few weeks ago.  If not, go read it!  I love it, because mom made the best choices along the way even though it was definitely not the birth she had planned, it was still empowering!   Induction at 35 weeks, epidural after 36 hours with pitocin.

Here is the video of when she was breathing her baby out.  YES, you can breathe out your baby, even with an epidural.  Mom even helped catch her own baby.

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Surfer Analogy

A mom off the Hypnobabies Yahoo Group came up with this.

Most women are like surfers who never get on the board when the wave comes.  Those are the epidural folks.

Some of us get on top of the wave and ride it, but really don’t enjoy the ride. (that’s me, and it makes an epidural tempting).

I suppose Hypnobabies is like a surfer who not only rides the wave, but is enjoying it, too!

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Hello everyone. I’ve been meaning to write for a while now (she was born 01/30) but have not had the time :-). She’s breastfeeding right now (my “Breastfriend pillow” is attached to me and I’m leaning on my desk so I can have both hands to type!).

Bubble of peace needed after the pushing stage but it has a great ending and the hypnosis Worked!

My water broke at 10 pm on Friday evening. I had just gone to the bathroom and didn’t notice anything then but when I got in the kitchen ,splash, lots of liquid came pouring down my legs. I called to my husband: “honey, I think my water broke!” and went back to sit on the toilet. DH handed me the phone so I could call my Doula. She suggested I wait a little bit to make sure I was still leaking and to go to the hospital if it was the case. I didn’t have any pressure waves whatsoever. Actually, it had been 2 full days since I had felt any Braxton Hicks. I had been feeling them A LOT before that and so when they disappeared I had resigned myself to start birthing at 41 or 42 weeks! I should have known that the change was a sign even if the change  was that I didn’t feel anything any more! I did drink Raspberry leaf tea that day for the first time. I had also been listening to the “Birthing Day affirmation CD” for a few days.

I knew I’d be on the 24 hour countdown if my pressure waves didn’t kick in so I didn’t want to go the hospital right away. That and the fact that I knew billing starts at midnight at my hospital. :-)It didn’t make sense to get there at 11.30 pm and be billed for a full extra night! I had something to eat. We cleaned up the house a bit, finished our last minute packing and I called my OB at midnight. He suggested I go to the hospital. We got there at 1 am. They checked to make sure it was amniotic fluid (it’s just a little cotton swab like for the GB test) but didn’t do any vaginal exam. Got in our room at 1.45 am. I figured I should try to get some rest and I would start moving around and doing things by morning if my pressure waves hadn’t started on their own.  I had an orange and then went to bed. Since I wasn’t planning on moving I didn’t object to being hooked to the monitor. I also asked for the first round of antibiotics since I was GB positive. By 4 am I started feeling sensations. I put my headphones with one of the scripts and relaxed. By 6 am, pressure waves were stronger. I woke DH up and went in the tub.

My Doula arrived shortly after. I still had my headphones on and would concentrate on the voice. DH was squatting in front of the tub, putting his hand on my forehead from time to time. After a couple of hours, things intensified, I actually said: “just so you know, I’m thinking of pain medication”. It wasn’t so much that I really wanted to get any, but I wanted them to know the thought was in my mind and they should be prepared to talk me out of it. Nobody answered and I closed my eyes again. By then, I was getting uncomfortable in the tub. It wasn’t big enough and I couldn’t straighten my legs and my neck was getting sore. I stood up but stayed in the tub hanging on my husband’s neck. I had a lot of bloody show and I was being vocal. Low moans. Then I felt like throwing up and did: my entire orange came back out. I thought: this could be transition. My doula suggested I get checked and so we called my OB’s back up since he was with another woman birthing. Well… I was only 4 cm at 9.30 am but I didn’t let it disappoint me because I knew that I could be fully dilated within the hour.
I stayed outside the tub and was hanging on my husband’s neck. Each time a pressure wave came, I asked him to lift my belly so he would put both his hands on my belly and support it as I said: Deeper… Deeper… to keep my hypnosis. I could totally feel it working. I was also blowing raspberries with my lips to stay relaxed as my doula suggested. By 11.30 am, I started feeling pressure and my Doula thought I should be checked again. I hesitated but then agreed and asked not to be told the number. After they checked me, I got the OK to start pushing! Yeaaaah! We put the “Pushing stage CD on” in the computer this time so everyone could hear it. Pushing felt good right away. I first started upright on my knees leaning on the top of the bed.

Then I switched to use the squatting bar, then I went on my side.

This ended up working best for me. After about 2 hours, my Doula suggested I keep pushing longer with each pressure wave and put a little bit more “umph” in each push. After about 3 hours of pushing, they could see a little bit of hair. However, an hour later, after 4 hours of pushing, she still hadn’t budged any farther down. Her heartrate was fine but she was just not descending. I had asked for an IV at about the 3 hour mark because I needed the energy and I couldn’t ingest anything except water and ice chips. The apple juice and birthing-ade I had made felt way too sweet and yucky.

I knew that I was pushing well so I knew that something had to be done because she wasn’t coming out so I asked the doctor what we should do next. He suggested we use the vacuum suction to get her out. He was confident that she would fit through my hips and he said it was better than going for a C-section. He said that I had done a great job getting her low enough so that we could use the vacuum. I checked with DH and my Doula and we all agreed that something had to be done so we went ahead with the vacuum. He put the suction cup on her head and I started pushing and for the first time during birthing, I felt tremendous pain. Her head was half way out and the suction cup came off (it has a built in safety valve if there is too much pressure) so she went back in. That was disappointing. Now I had already felt the pain, and I knew I had to start all over again. I had this amazing dialogue with myself: you can’t do it. yes you can. no you can’t. you are being torn in half. she has to come out. she has to come out. All the while, I’m letting out what DH described as a ROAR. All my will went into it. I could see the doctor’s hand pulling and shaking. I heard a “pop” in my rearend. When her head came out again, first her hand was by her face and had to be freed, then the cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times. Once all the way out, she wasn’t breathing and she was all blue. I did get a chance to look between her leg and see that baby was a girl. They took her to the other side of the room for the oxygen and she did cry within a short time. She was brought back to me immediately and we all enjoyed seeing our little girl for the first time.

Amazingly enough, I didn’t have any perineal tear at all. I only had a minor labial abrasion that required 2 stitches. I was bleeding heavily so they gave me medicine to help with that. My placenta came out very easily but I didn’t get a chance to see it. The pop I had heard was my tailbone popping. I couldn’t sit for days and am still in pain. However, I had no pain at all in the front not even going to the bathroom! I also was not constipated at all and didn’t have any pain with my first bowel movement. I think maybe the fact that the first thing I ate after birthing was prune helped!

Talina Queen did not latch right away. It actually took 4 attempts over a 12 hour period for her to eat. However, I had a supportive nurse who told me not to worry and that her blood sugar level was fine and so she didn’t have to eat right away. I trusted the hospital staff so much I did something I thought I would never do: I let them take her to the nursery. I was so tired. I hadn’t slept in close to 36 hours. I knew she’d be safer with the nurse and I trusted that she would not be given formula.

Summary: Hypnobabies WORKED! I had a completely unmedicated birth. I believe my baby might not have made it if I had had medicine in me and thus in her. It would have been harder to revive her if she had had anesthesia in her body.

The staff at the hospital and my OB were GREAT! They started using Hypnobabies words after hearing them on the CD. Nobody ever asked if I wanted medication. My nurse was Awesome! She said, she had never seen a vacuum birth without anesthesia (I now know why!). My OB was amazingly patient. He was with me for a long time. He put his fingers inside of me to help me feel where I should push. I trusted him completely. I am glad I birthed at the hospital instead of at home.

All and all I am very pleased with my birth. I am extremely proud of myself. My husband brags about me to everyone but I tell him we gave birth to her together. I couldn’t have done it without him. His body was in it as much as mine. Thank you Hypnobabies and thank you to everyone on this forum. Your support during pregnancy was great. Aloha and enjoy your birthing. Sarah

PS: I started the hypnobabies practice at 20 weeks of pregnancy. I did not do the finger drop technique every day. I actually only did it a few times during pregnancy and I did not use my light switch during birthing. My husband did not do the partner practice. However, I did listen to the CDs (scripts and affirmation) every day and I did BELIEVE it would work for me. It sure did. Funny point: whenever my daughter gets fussy while eating, I’ll say: “peace” and I can tell she relaxes!

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